posted 02-05-2003 01:46 AM         

Be strong. You did the right thing and followed the best decision.

woofdoggy, has put it so nicely and i strongly agree with every word she said.

Indeed, "be comforted with the knowledge that your dear pet had the best this world can offer - love" (quoting woofdoggy).

posted 02-05-2003 05:44 PM         

Of course you are having doubts - that's a perfectly normal reaction after such a heart-heavy decision. Just reading what you wrote, I feel the same as others - you made the right decision. Time will dull the edges of your self doubt, and now you have a guardian angel watching over you.

When you are feeling better, you may want to research various vets in your area and determine which ones WOULD come to your house if and when you ever encounter that situation again. I found a vet around me who will come, and it gives me some comfort because I know I will not outlive my girls and if I have to make that decision, we can stay here in our home.

Try to take solace in what you gave Shaman. The brutal truth is that if you had not adopted her, she may have been euthanized at the shelter (especially because she was pregnant and most people don't want to take that on). You gave her six years of love and a happy life, and she in turn gave you companionship and joy. Nothing will lessen the hurt except time, and nothing will take away the memories of Shaman. She'll be with you always, even though her physical presence is gone. You also have her offspring, who will be a constant reminder of your years with Shaman.

I'm not sure about the soul question, but I am convinced that animals have spirits. I've encountered the power of that spirit from the savannas of Africa, while watching wild elephants nurture their young calves, to various sanctuaries caring for primates rescued from medical experimentation. Each animal has an intangible force which stays with us when our lives touch theirs. I know I'm strengthened and inspired by the spirits of animal companions who have gone before me.